I have been back to work for a month and half now. Finally got my paycheck after more than 4 years. Feels...well, I feel a lot of things.
One thing is that going to work is easier than taking care of a kid. This is probably not universal opinion, but it applies at least to my job. I have time to think, eat, sit and talk to people. I don't have to listen to "mooom!" every 5 minutes of the day. So when it's the evening and we have multiple meltdowns, I usually have the means to process it. Not all the time, I am not a supermom.
That is a really good thing, but mainly I just feel like there is zero time to actually enjoy life. And inflation has been so bad that even with two jobs in IT field, we can't afford to buy an apartment. I find myself thinking about money all the time. Which until now, I was not. And I don't like that. I don't feel secure.
How can anyone actually feel secure in this day and age. Seriously, reading news is a dangerous sport now, it raises my heart beat more than working out.
When I was choosing university major I went the secure path of choosing IT, such a booming great industry. Well guess fucking what, 4 years on parental leave and what do we get? AI agents doing our job. What a lovely secure job, that AI is doing for me. Awesome. I am not complaining. Me complaining? Never. I love that I don’t have to code those boring lines of code all day long. But you know, sometimes, it was so nice to be doing some task, looking at stack overflow, debug for hours until you conquered it, you’ve done it, by yourself. What a win. Well... now I am basically someone who just checks if it visually looks like it should and humans can use it.
Humans, huh, we are so screwed.
Well, overall I am enjoying being back at work, and making the most of it while I can, because the future looks very unclear.